I met my dearest friend, soul twin to my heart. Did I tell you how I cut my heart open to see how I’ve corrupted it with deviations frown upon by gods? As I spoke of my betrayal, the Great Wolf listened in silence as a priest would over a confession and when I was done, this is what he said to me:

Distinctly I recognize that feeling, it’s like a stillness that hovers all around you…
You are here again my old friend, another awkward moment I must say…
Have a seat and tell me of your journeys, for I do need to sit after a perilous quickening…
Seems like the sky and earth just rolled itself together and me at the end of it looking … See more right through this spiral of ecstasy and chaos…
My friend, your touch left me senseless for a while, my knees buckled, my hands numb, my veins in my head feels like it’ll pop out of my skin…
I am exasperated for air, will you embrace me with your softness my friend or you are just to sit and watch while I grovel over such indignified carelessness…
A brief moment my good old friend, for I still have much to give until then, I hope you can visit me again but that again would be the final conversation between us…
That, I bargain for and my honor and soul would be my promise…
Help me my friend for my legs are still weakened from your touch…
Such an irony ain’t it, but I understand my good old friend of what you mean and what you are…I totally understand… – ARM

Know you how it feels when you’ve lost someone dear to you in moment of carelessness? I told the Great Wolf:

I understand now, the true meaning of betrayal and the magnitude of loss;
I know the debt has to be paid for one who is faithless must earn entry into heaven for deeds done out of moral carelessness;
I’ll sit with you my friend and speak of my journeys;
But I pray you do the same for your words bring tears to my eyes.

The beast was here all along…


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