9 Inch Nails — Hurt

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that’s real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar’s chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stain of time
The feeling disappears
You are someone else
I am still right here

What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

I did hurt myself today… I did find a way, to focus all my pain;
I sent everyone away… so I could tear a hole, to focus all my pain;
I’d break everything… just to feel the sting, to focus all my pain;
Its hard to understand… unless you know the shame, to need to feel the pain.

The needle tore a hole, dragged across my skin but it is not the same;
2 eyes drilled into my hands… looking back at you looking right at me;
I’m so sick of all the lies, twisted fairy-tales and silly little games;
If I could start again, I would hurt you back…. I would take my time.

The beast was here all along…